I'm Back. Insert TI.

I don't even know how to start this post.  Hello?  Is anyone out there?  Is this thing on?!  I've wanted to come back this blog for so so long.  But, if you can remember (here) I couldn't seem to find that connection to the writing, to me, to this.  Four years into Nashville and I'm ready to start my journey, journal, and this again. 

It's been a unique and amazing year already.  I'm the big, scary three-oh now and I have to say, this has been one hell of a ride.  I think the last 6 months have been more exciting than the last six years.  Everyone says your thirties as a woman are liberating.  I believe that.  I've been more confident than I ever have been.  I've stood for the things I believe in.  I've found and cherished "my people" here in this new city. I've met amazing people.  Ones that challenge me and make me better.  I feel so fortunate lately.  I also have a partner in crime now.   No, not a boyfriend.  Sadly, I just ended a relationship a few weeks ago.  I have a puppy.  His name is Rupp and he is the best thing that has happened to me in quite some time.  Not my apartment, but me yes.  Ask me about the blue ink incident in a few weeks, I'm not quite ready to talk about that yet. 

I have a new job. And its been so rewarding, exciting, challenging, and scary all at the same time.  I am approaching my one year anniversary there and I couldn't be more thankful. This opportunity has taught me so much and it was the exact change and direction in my career that I so desperately needed. I finally have my own apartment {still saving $$ to buy}.   A total of 600 square feet of heaven and its all mine.  I'm proud of this little place I've made my own.  I also love living alone.  Whenever I am in close quarters with others or need to share space I always cannot wait to get home and constantly think of Kevin McCallister "When I grow up, I'm living alone, I'm living alone."  K. McCall knew what was up.  This whole living alone thing is not bad.

That's it for now a little update.  I have some posts planned for the next week or two.  




It has been a while.  I have to be honest.  I have not checked this blogged often enough or even thought about it as I should.  I've lost touch with writing that is really meaningful.  And I've missed that.

I'm going through a break-up right now.  Well, is that what you call it?  It is over.  Over, over.  The kind of over that ended friendly.  The kind of break up I've been through time and again.  The kind where I've learned that continuing to communicate only prolong the inevitable.    That one of you moves on first.  I miss him and the relationship, but I don't miss him the way you should.  And I know that too, means I should move on. 

It feels as though breaking up just gets harder the older we get.  When I don't see something going somewhere I end it early.  No need to waste feelings or time.  So when a relationship ends, it usually because I saw the potential it could be.  Being thirty now, it is harder.  I won't delve into the details or difficulties, but I hope that this means I am one step closer to my person.  


Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas, y'all.  What a beautiful 2013 was.  Many, many exciting changes.  I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and holiday with your family and friends.

Warm wishes,

I got myself a little gift for the end of 2013 and start of 2014.  A promise to myself.  Vintage and on Etsy.  I cannot wait to get it.


Life Advice. Women Advice. Love Advice.

My email inbox, Facebook, and Twitter feeds have been infiltrated with advice for women in their twenties.  While, they're always an interesting point of view, I sometimes find myself saying, yeah duh...thanks for the heart felt advice, but WE KNOW THAT, K! Side note, text me "K." and I'm going to be forced to assume you want me dead.  Thanks, Lena Dunham for the reference. But yall, Hannah Brencher freaking hits the nail on the head with her blog post "25 things every woman needs to know." with her blog post, here. I would like to cite a few of my favorite points below.

1) Life is a steep, uphill battle but it's fierce and it's beautiful and you'll be sad to see it go if you live it right.

- This is an excellent reminder, that life ain't always rainbows and butterflies, but it's freaking beautiful and if you don't take the time to get off your work laptop, iPhone, or worse- worry your time away, it'll slip right by.  

8) I agree with Bruno Mars and, if I were a good singer, I'd serenade you alongside him in singing how I hope he buys you flowers... and holds your hands... and takes you to parties if you like to dance. You deserve that. Always. Don't think you should have less than that.You are worthy beyond words, gal.

- This is so true.  I've really grown to love ME.  Me, me. The quirky, weird, impatient, curly-headed, wide-hip ME.  As and Carrie Bradshaw once said, "The most exciting, challenging, and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you, you love, well, that's just fabulous."  We all deserve the guy that wants to give us everything.  

13) Nude pumps. They're good for the soul. They are a must-have in any serious closet. Buy a pair one day and I can promise your whole entire style statement will benefit from them.

- This is indeed a fact.  If you don't own a pair, run to target and get a pair for 29.99.  RIGHT NOW.

18) No matter how tech savvy we get, there is a need to say things to a person's face. Please, for the love of lovelier things, have the courage to call someone up and verbalize your thoughts or meet for a coffee. Breaking a heart is hard stuff, stopping a relationship is never fun, but there will never be anything as loud as this statement: You are worth my words. You are worth my presence. You are worth, and will always be worth, more than just letters on a screen and a broken heart jammed in the crooks of an overflowing inbox. Face to face connections are fading faster, please don't let them get away...   

- I've always followed this mantra, I can't say I've gotten the same. But hey, Karma is karma.  

21) Regret is a real thing. It's going to happen. It's going to come clomp-clomp-clomping into your life at some point. Don't hold onto things forever but learn from them and let the past go. The past will be a dictator if you let her.

- Don't focus or dwell too much on the past and that which you regret.  Learn. Change. Grow. Do better.  That's what life is about. 

Well and that's it, I just wanted to add on to the amazing words of Hannah Brencher, and if you happen to be going through a heart break, I would say this post below is a good.  

And smile.  Because literally there is ALWAYS something wondnerful about to happen. 


Wednesday Wisdom.

It's time to focus on me.  And one of my favorite quotes that is SO true. Shirely MacLaine, you are one wise wise, lady my love!

The most profound relationship we will ever have is the one with ourselves.


Just not me...

Somewhere in between moving to Nashville, starting a new career, and immersing myself into new....well, everything, I lost my knack to write.  To connect.  To spend time at a computer and really throw myself into something, anything, that I was writing.  My posts, though valid attempts at being sincere, and genuine just have not been enough.  I've longed for sitting at my computer, connecting with the blogs I read, people who read mine.  Maybe it's because I write copy for a living, and my brain is just "on" too much, maybe it's because I feel as though my time seeps from beneath my fingertips, and the last thing I want to do is to put those fingertips to the keyboard and spend more time in front of a computer, but I miss it.

This last year has been interesting.  I must say moving to a new city has its ups and downs.  Nashville has been a fairly (and by fairly, I mean almost completely) simple transition.  Close enough, but not too far away.  I miss my close friends and of course my family, but am glad I'm gone for a little while.  One year later, a few heart breaks, a lot of head aches, some successes, and a few failures, some tears, lots of laughter later, I finally feel I have accepted Nashville as home.  I have a little family here.  I can tell my dentist whole-heartedly I have a crew to take care of me when I have to get those sucker wisdom teeth taken out at the end of this year.  But somehow, it hasn't been enough.  I've settled for the guys, who are good, but not good enough, not treating me enough.  I've let go of the guy who could have been the one, maybe because I wasn't ready, or scared.  I've learned a lot about marketing, I've grown in my career, I've changed.  I've challenged, and been challenged by colleagues.  But somehow, for me it isn't enough.  Are we always chasing? I know they say it's a journey, not a destination, but something within me feels full, but not whole.  I want a bigger city.  I want to feel the excitement of living in a loft.  Nashville, is unique, and exciting, even on a Monday night, but somehow it isn't enough.  Before even considering a move, I ask you all.....is it ever really enough? Insert cheesy Britney song circa 2000.  If there's nothing missing in my life.....then why do these tears come at night? Okay, they are not tears, but something is not completely satisfied here.  Have you all felt this way?


Update: Alopecia

Hi love bugs,

Its been a busy last few weeks.  I am preparing for four huge trade shows (where most of my "innovative and creative" product launches and creations) will be deployed.  I am beyond excited and busy.  But I've had some emails and messages on FB asking for an update and questions on the hair issue.  It is still an issue.  But, it FINALLY seems to be growing back, slowly but surely.  I've had a few people question where this started and think they may have this and have had this for a while.  Let me preface (while talking to my hair stylist, and beauty consultant:)) that hair during the summer tends to shed more.  So if you notice more hair gone in the front, and it falling out in the shower more often, its totally normal . What is not normal is having a completely bald round spot.

Things to help fix alopecia.  I am not a doctor or health consultant. So please see your physician if you are having issues.  What helped me are:

1. I started taking 50 mg of Spironolacton.  I know what you are thinking. Trust me.  But you don't have heart issues!! People take this for acne and other things.  And this has been correlated to hair growth.  SO. I take 50MG a day

2. I get a steroid shot MONTHLY in the bald spot.  Okay, this isn't lovely, its gross and hurts.   I think this also makes me tired.  I am finally (after 6 months) taking a break.  And only getting every 2 months.  Once I started to see growth.

3.  Halted the Bug Guy.  We have Terminex come once per month.  He still sprays the house, but I no longer allow him to spray my room.  I leave glue traps instead.

4.  HEALTHY.  I cut down my fast food habits.  I now only eat fast food once a week.

5. I got a NutriBullet.  It IS SUCH a good way to get the veggies in that you wouldn't normally consume.  I love veggies but not in the mass, this helps.  I also am not a breakfast person if its before 10 am, which is every. single. week. day for me.  Having a shake in the morning gives me energy. I always add of scoop of RAW vanilla protein powder.

6.  I swtiched to Almond Milk.  Do you know we are the only species that consumes another species milk?  Weird.  I drink Califia Almond Milk (Toasted Cocoanut and Normal are AMAZE). I just lapsed and got some regular milk, because well, this is my weakness y'all.

7.  Last but not least.  I am on a strict yoga regimen.   This is the best way to get fit (yes I muscle now) and also de-stress.  My favorite part of class is breathing out anything that is not serving me in a positive way.  My physician advised that alepoecia is typically onset by stress.  And this I know is the cause.  You all, it is crazy the physical affects that stress can have on the body. I am lucky it is not anything serious.

Basically.  Be healthy.  Watch what you eat.  and de-stress when you should.